Journaling is Writing

I’m a strong advocate for journaling. It’s a great way to relive stress, flesh out thoughts, and memorialize events in our lives. I often use journaling to vent my frustrations and to really understand what I’m thinking. There are times when I can’t fully work through what I’m feeling until I write things down. Strangers on the internet often advise that writers should write every day no matter if it is a full story, part of a story, a scene, a list of imagery, setting descriptions… whatever.

There are many days when journaling is the only writing I get done. It may not have anything to do with my creative writing process, but translating thoughts and ideas onto paper, in any form, is what writing is about. Journaling keeps our writing muscles active, literally and figuratively, but there are times when even my journaling isn’t great. Some days I can only manage a sentence or two, but at least I wrote something.

I did a daily journaling challenge a couple years ago. Every day, for the entire year, I journaled… even if I felt like I didn’t have anything to say. The days when I felt the most wordless, were often the days I was holding a lot in, so journaling forced me to express those thoughts and feelings in writing. I’m always afraid to be one hundred percent honest in my journaling, however. I still feel like somebody is going to pick up my journal and read something I don’t want them to know, so I do censor myself to an extent when I reflect or vent. I’m trying to break out of that fear, though, because I know that being completely honest with myself, especially in journaling, is the best way to release stress and find solutions to anything I may be struggling with.

I love giving journals as gifts, especially when I know the person does not have a journaling routine yet. I truly believe that journaling is a healing practice. I have a journal now that I love. I got it from Target a couple of years ago. It’s big (over 300 pages), and has a stiff cloth cover. I’m almost to the end of it so I have been looking for a new one, but I can’t find anything comparable to the one I have. I wish I’d gotten two of them the first time. I’ve never used the same type of journal twice because I always ended up finding something better the next time I needed one. This time is the exception, though. This time has me thinking about designing my own.

Designing my own journal would be amazing, but it’s been a challenge finding the right manufacturer to produce the kind of journal I want with a reasonable price point. Some of the really nice places have a minimum order requirement that would fill my entire closet. Though I have thought about designing journals similar to the one I use currently to sell, I need to have one for myself first to make sure it’s worth selling.

If anybody out there knows where I can get a good, thick, cloth-covered journal for a decent price, or where I can get one made, let me know. And if I ever decide to design and sell NINE & TWO branded journals, I’ll let you know.

Not Writing Becomes the Reward of Not Writing

…behavior that gets rewarded tends to get repeated. If you stop writing then you’re kind of rewarding yourself with not writing.

-Octavia E. Butler

I was half-listening to an old Octavia Butler interview on YouTube when she said the above quote. I had to pause what I was doing and rewind the video to hear what she was saying more intentionally. It hit me that, in a way, I have been kind of rewarding myself with not writing for a long time now.

I’ve been delaying making the final edits to my book because I don’t yet know which self-publishing route to go. I’m at the point of going the cheapest, quickest route just to get it done and over with. It’s not fun anymore. Other than working on the book, and that one (published) short story that I’m still geeked about, I haven’t done much writing over the past year. Now, it seems, not writing has sort of become a habit.

Thankfully, I haven’t given it all up yet (I’m still here at least). I keep talking about forming new writing habits and indulging in online writing courses, but I have yet to do any of that. I’m not quite sure where I’m blocked, or what internal (or external) thing is keeping me from diggin in.

I remember when I started writing my first novel (yet to be completed). Granted, I wasn’t working at the time, but I was writing for at least two hours every day. I’d built up the habit because I was enjoying the story. Once the story I thought I was telling got jumbled and lost, I stopped enjoying it, and stopped writing that book. The thing is, I know I have more stories to tell. I even have notes for essays that I want to include in a second collection after I finally publish this first one I’m working on.

To put it simply, I’ve rewarded myself with not writing for so long that I’m not sure how to get it back. Another thing Butler said in that interview was, “If you’re a writer you can’t stop writing.” And I feel that. On one hand, she’s saying if you’re a writer you can’t help but to write, you have to write or it’ll drive you nuts; on the other hand, she’s saying if you’re a writer you can’t stop writing or else you’ll lose your skill… craft… self. One is a personality thing, and the other is instruction. I feel it both ways.

I keep coming back to these two blogs, I journal, I make lists (and more lists), and I take notes because I can’t not write. But it feels sort of washed in comparison to the loudly colored short stories I enjoy creating. I know that once I get back into the groove of writing again (because I will) I can’t allow myself to stop writing because I won’t want to feel this kind of emptiness again. I don’t want not writing to be my reward. I want my writing to become a habit that gets rewarded by better and better stories so that the writing doesn’t stop.

I’m curious…what are you rewarding yourself with? How do you build back up the habit of writing when you’ve been removed from it for a while? I’m going to start be looking for a writing challenge right now!

Until next time…

Happy Writing!

Writing Journal: Scheduling Projects

My birthday was last week, and with this new year I want to be more serious about my writing projects. I want to actually finish them. And then I want to do something with them—put them out into the world in whatever way makes the most sense.

As I was about to write and schedule some blog posts it hit me that I needed a calendar to schedule my writing days. Not just for blog posts, but for the project I’m working on. It would help me keep track of what was done, what needed to be completed, and when to do what.

So I went to Hobby Lobby and picked up one of the little Studio 52 binders, along with a pack of calendar inserts and a pack of note pages. All of which were on sale, so I win!

This little calendar is specifically for writing goals. I will be able to go back and see when a specific blog was posted, as well as write in what I should be writing on a specific day. I have already planned out my writing days for getting the contents of my books finished by the end of the year, pacing myself and allowing space for other endeavors.

For instance, I wrote in my vacation days (which today is one of) because I knew they would not be writing days. I typically write blog posts on Sundays and schedule them for the week, but I knew that I had a funeral to attend this past weekend, and then I’d be leaving Tuesday for vacation, so I spent Wednesday morning [writing this on 9/4] writing the blog posts for this week, and scheduled some project writing for Thursday and Monday.

I’ve always loved the look and feel of paper calendars, and the popularity of these customizable ones have increased that affection. I tried using the calendar with the plastic rings for day-to-day stuff, but I couldn’t keep up with writing everything in it. My Google Calendar handles life scheduling much better. However, I think this little binder planner is going to be excellent for keeping a writing schedule.

Tell me, how do you keep your writing tasks on track. I like having options.

Happy Writing!