I Got Unstuck!

It took a few weeks of prayer, sending myself voice-to-text notes, and wandering through the possibilities, but Grace and Mercy have finally let me free!

I spent most of Friday breaking through the wall and telling their story. I like it, even though it’s just a first draft.

Everything is a first draft this time around. I’m not heavily editing each peace as I go. First draft then onto the next. And since I’m finally unstuck from this story, I can move on to the next. “Healing Practices” seems appropriate, but maybe something else will call me first.

Anyway, that’s it. Just wanted to give you a little update. I’ve got three more stories to write before the end of February to meet my first goal.

I hope you are progressing well in your life’s efforts.

December Writing Cave Wrap Up

So, we’re at the end of the first week of January and I still haven’t the nerve to log back on socials.

This writing cave month was very much needed even though I didn’t get as much writing done as I thought I would. There was quite a bit of reflection, clearing energetic space, making room for things to be moved out of or into my life. It’s been mildly cleansing and a lot reassuring.

There’s been validation of my intuition, confirmation that my desires, intentions, and moves are in the direction of God and the life I am creating for myself, and a consistent practice of regaining trust in myself through all of it. My therapist would be proud of me.

What I did get done during December in terms of writing:

1 Short story completed
2 Journal designs completed, and proof copies ordered
1 Short story started and stuck on

My goal is to have 5 of my short stories done by the end of February. Positive vibes, well wishes, and aligned prayers are welcome!

There have been some business document mishaps this week that I’m still working to correct, but I’m chalking it up to the new business owner learning curve. However, they have thrown a wrench in my writing plan for today. There’s always next week, though.

And since next week is not today, I’m not going to think too much about it.

I’m learning to practice mindful presence. We’ll see how that goes. I hope your 2023 has started well.

December Writing Cave – Day 14

Well, hello there!

No, I have not written another short story yet. BUT I have laid out the general idea and titles (except for 4 pieces) of the short stories I want to include in Book 2!

Right now, there are fifteen stories I want to include in this book. A couple of them have first drafts completed, some of them are almost fully fleshed out ideas, and some are just ideas. For instance, one of my notecards just says “friendship → breakup, reconnection, loss” and that’s it.

I have no idea where I’m going with that one yet.

Speaking of notecards, I decided to write my story ideas on individual notecards and organize them by color and symbol. Like this:

ORANGE – realistic
YELLOW – a little magical realism
GREEN – fantastical

* – basic story idea only, needs a lot of ideation
O (pretend that circle is filled in) – story idea but no title
♥ – complete story idea and title

The notecards are small enough for me to carry around and I can draft stories on my phone as needed—that’s how I drafted the story on the 1st (even though my laptop was within five feet of where I was sitting).

It feels good to just allow these ideas to flow. I’ve felt very stunted the last few months. Creating the space this month to write has been incredibly helpful. Also, I grabbed my Moleskine off the shelf and found some pretty good lines from 2009 (yes, thirteen years ago) and 2018 that inspired a few of the stories I’m writing for this next book.

Reading those lines from years ago made me realize… just because you write something today, doesn’t mean it has to produce today. You may be laying the foundation for a better you (more experienced, more confident, has gone through some things, etc.) to build upon.

One paragraph in particular—something I wrote in 2009—was the 100% exact description of an experience I had last year. Reading it struck me so hard. There was flashback, but there was also vision for what I could do with it… the story I could tell with it. I wouldn’t have had that vision when I wrote it in 2009, though. I was just completing a scenery exercise for a creative writing class I was taking in college. Now, though, it’s ready to become something. I’ve grown as a woman and a writer, but I’ve also experienced hard things that I can pull from to craft this story into one that makes other people feel things.

That’s always my goal—to make people feel things when they read my stories.

And to encourage people to explore their feelings through journaling.

So, that’s another thing I’ve been working on that came up this month. I’d had the idea for a set of journals before, but it wasn’t the right time. It felt uncomfortable and extremely difficult—which is how I know it wasn’t the right time. Now, though, I have a good grasp on it.

I think.

I want to make sure that what is in my head gets into my hands in a way that I can share. So, I’m creating something and if I love it, then I will make it available to you. If I love it, I’ll make it available to everyone.

Goodness, I am so proud of myself. If you know me, you know that’s a difficult thing for me to say, especially out loud and in public. I have always had an “other people have it worse than you” mentality coupled with an “other people are doing better than you” mentality. Somehow, it was shaped in me. Well, not somehow, I know how. It’s still a weird intersection to live at.

The things I have accomplished this year… the things I have overcome this year… we’ll talk about it later. I’m in no mood to start crying.

Thanks for being here. I can’t wait to get these things out to you! I mean, I can because I still have to create them, but you know what I’m saying.